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exam ..

heya ... im back after weeks of hectic end of semester exam ..
i'm not counting those days to come but it'll be like 5 more weeks to go and i have to struggle even more harder cos this is going to be the final decision of my future career ... yikess!!!!
i would always want to end this fast, i mean, studying and everything and be like other growing adults, earning moneys or perhaps, start building up own family although i know im quite behind of all those adult thingy. but yet,i'm definitely sure i'll miss my college time ...
my batch will be the first batch experiencing a so-called comprehensive exam where the student will be allocated cases which is known to be from any subject they've learned so far .. from medicine to paediatric. we had a mock exam done so that students wont be too 'gelabah' and mentally prepared when the real exam comes. I got a case of a pregnant lady who had diabetes on her pregnancy. it's known to be the easiest case when compared to other surgery, medicine or even paediatrics case. errm, i did quite o.k eventhough i'm not really satisfied with the answers ..

for example:
your patient, a pregnant lady who is a diabetes refuses to use insulin injection as part of treatment. she lives in rural area and it's very difficult for nurses to come help her with daily injection. what would advise her as a doctor since you know a pregnant lady cant consume oral hypoglycemic drug due to effect to her fetus ...

what aaaarrr????

i got confused ...

then, i answered ..

i have no choice but to teach her proper insulin injection technique...

then, the examiner asked again ...
what if she still refuses to do so???

i got blanked ...

Then, the bell rang and i was asked to leave before i could even answer .. darn la .. i'm no good in this kinda situational question, seriously ..

And for the OSCE, i was asked to perform a CPR and this question were like this ..
What is emergency's call number?
I answered, 994 ..

And the lecturer said, no .. it's 999 ..

And i was like .. "eh,bukan dah tukar number ke?"

And so, we had a 30seconds of mild argument when i had to agree that the number is still 999 .. until now,im still figuring out the exact emergency call num... what aa????

Anyway, this exam is going to end in just another two days... i had one more day gap before i had to go for short cases.i just want this to end soon enough .. mak tak tahan lagi nyah ... aaawwww!!!

After all, i received news from mi amor that he's going to be away for threee months, for some 'preparation course' and it's going to be somewhere in a rural area where there's no connection, even for phone calls. As a normal reaction,yes, i did cry .. i even cried for few days cos we're going to be far from each other with no call connections and so on ... but i know what he wants is for me to support him no matter what. somehow i know crying wont do any better. what i need is to be strong and independant enough eventhough we both know each other that when he come back after the course, i'll already be going back to kedah for good after i finished this medical course. It's going to be very hard meeting him after this.. with my parent's dissapproval, how far johor will be from kedah .. and so on .. sometimes, it's hard for me to think about this ... it'll just make me feel down...

There's happy and sad things going on ...
But i choose not to think of anything ...
Cos im scared of losing grip ...
Cos exam's coming ...
Everything has to be put aside ...
Except books, knowledge and spirit ...

Full stop...

miss comot @ 12/21/2005 02:06:00 AM

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