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currently known as COMOT

what do my close buddies call me?

mel: puan, la~zelia
mahesh: eelz
sha & the gang: naz (honestly i hate this one)
the rest: just plain ol' elia
my matahari: that's a secret *wink*

i'm not a sexybomb, i'm just ..
+ potentially malignant medical student
+ psychogenically dependant on music
+ loves the sound of the guitar
+ have strong feelings towards everything
+ easily distracted
+ hates rules
+ responsible for own actions
+ hates being envious
+ imaginative
+ good sense of humour
+ likes to be loved (honestly who doesn't?)
+ finds it hard to trust someone
+ easily hurt

Cursed Ogre from the Mysterious Ominous Tower

♥tag in baby♥

♥mp3♥

+KENT-protection
+THE BRILLIANT GREEN-angel song
+PLACEBO-every you every me
+MUSE-sing for absolution
+MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE-you know what they do to guys like us in prison
+INCUBUS-a certain shade of green
+DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL-the places you have come to fear the most

♥music to my ears♥
placebo
kent
the brilliant green
incubus
dashboard confessional
the cure
radiohead
all saints
alicia keys
usher
fullmetal alchemist OST
cokelat
gerhana ska cinta

♥my eyecandy♥
bleach
naruto
one piece
gakuen alice
konjiki no gash bell
school rumble
samurai champloo
yakitate japan
tactics
shin chan
desperate housewives
one tree hill
SATC

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♥tomodachi♥

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i thought i'm doing good but i'm not

My holiday doesn't mean a thing to me ...
I thought i'll be doing just fine but i'm not ...
I'm not heartbroken for the very first time ...
But i think this is the worse one ..

Last few weeks i went to KL, to meet Mel since i miss this friend of mine and her cat... and of course, to ease my feelings. I had quite a good time with her. I can't say i had real fun there since i'm in my heartbroken mood. But thanx to her, i din't cry at night like i used to when i'm at home.

I'm sorry if my previous posts makes you guys yawn to read my 'rintihan'. I'm not trying to gain anyone's sympathy. I just feel like this is the only way to express my feelings. Hope you guys understand ...

Yerp, ive tried my best not to call him almost everyday like i used to. I made it for only one week but then i realised i miss him terribly. Hearing him cry on the phone won't makes me feel even worse. I know we're both heartbroken .. but like i said before, we can't do anything .. let time explain ...

Yet, after one week, he called me, begging me to stay ... i dunno what to do except asking him to be patience .. and ill be patience too .. it's so hard, innit?

I came back from kl knowing that my second 'lover', which is my laptop has gone. It has been gone from it's place for two days and i finally got it back.I found out that all my pics with him that has been there in my lappie has gone. It seems that my parents trying to erase everything about me and him from myself. But i guess they're wrong since they can't erase me from my mind. I know i'm 'anak derhaka' since i haven't been talking to my dad for quite awhile .. until now ... i dunno, i'm speechless when i'm facing my dad and to be exact ... saya sangat merajuk dan berkecil hati dengan tindakan dia ...

My interview for postings went quite ok although i din't answer any questions at all.It's just a formality for the new doctors before they start working. The man who handle my interview asked me about where i plan to work. I said i want to be independant enough to be far from my family. I dunno, for rite now, i feel that they're overprotective and of course, i don't have any freedom at all... but then, they're still my parents .. perhaps they know what's best for me ... perhaps ...

Cik Reen, do you remember our meeting plan? on 23rd March? i'm so sorry i couldnt make it .. and yeah, this is the reason that i guess i don't have to explain again .. to tell you the truth, i don't have any mood at all and for now, my playstation has been keeping me busy in front of tv all day long ... heh ...

I guess i have nothing more to write here ... chiao!

miss comot @ 4/17/2006 08:21:00 PM

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