mel: puan, la~zelia mahesh: eelz sha & the gang: naz (honestly i hate this one) the rest: just plain ol' elia my matahari: that's a secret *wink*
i'm not a sexybomb, i'm just .. + potentially malignant medical student + psychogenically dependant on music + loves the sound of the guitar + have strong feelings towards everything + easily distracted + hates rules + responsible for own actions + hates being envious + imaginative + good sense of humour + likes to be loved (honestly who doesn't?) + finds it hard to trust someone + easily hurt
after almost, say, few weeks, i'm here again ... i have to admit i miss blogging world much!!
sorry for i havent been visiting few blogs that i used to click around whenever i'm bored. i've kept myself busy lately ... with my new lover ... ;p
nope ... he's not another man in my life ... it's my best buddy for stressful situation i had recently ... PLAYSTATION2 ...
trust me, if u guys ever feel stressful, feels like 'killing' someone, just switch on ur PS2 and start shooting somebody! hehehehe!!!
i started playing a game released few years back that i'm dying to play!it's Kingdom Hearts. For PS2 player,i bet they'll enjoy it as much as i do ... it's really fun, especially Disney characters. Since i was 5yrs old, i love Ariel so much.
i'm tired to tell about him to everybody.yerp, he was the one. but he's my past now. i'm starting to move on. the world once i thought has ended is actually a new beginning .to be exact, i've planned to experiment anything new that has appeared in my life. still, i havent talk to my dad for quite sometime. i dunno why. i know i shouldnt blame him since he's only trying to 'protect' me from a guy he thought was an 'idiot'. but ... hmmm ...
whether it's irony or not ... i've just had a broken heart while most of my friends have found love of their life .. to be exact ... most of them are getting married ..
owh yeah, i'm currently watching Trainspotting for say .... 10 times oledi! hehehe!! best la ... especially the quotes like below ... those suits me and my new principle .. ;)
"Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed- interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit- crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that?
Our only response was to keep on going and fuck everything. Pile misery upon misery, heap it up on a spoon and dissolve it with a drop of bile, then squirt it into a stinking purulent vein and do it all over again. Keep on going: getting up, going out, robbing, stealing, fucking people over, propelling ourselves with longing towards the day it would all go wrong. Because no matter how much you stash or how much you steal, you never have enough. No matter how often you go out and rob and fuck people over you always need to get up and do it all again. Sooner or later, this sort of thing was bound to happen."
btw, mum's bringing me along for her next trip to Bali. I'm trying to save some money since there's no income or allowance for me at all cos 'saya penganggur' ..heh .. MEW, i'm sorry for cancelling our plan to Bubu Long Beach. Klu ada masa next time, kite pegi ek!
As i said, i'm penganggur. And a penganggur like has no new event in her life except playstation ..
p/s: bile lah aku nak start keje ni? biol plak rase dok rumah lame2 .....