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currently known as COMOT

what do my close buddies call me?

mel: puan, la~zelia
mahesh: eelz
sha & the gang: naz (honestly i hate this one)
the rest: just plain ol' elia
my matahari: that's a secret *wink*

i'm not a sexybomb, i'm just ..
+ potentially malignant medical student
+ psychogenically dependant on music
+ loves the sound of the guitar
+ have strong feelings towards everything
+ easily distracted
+ hates rules
+ responsible for own actions
+ hates being envious
+ imaginative
+ good sense of humour
+ likes to be loved (honestly who doesn't?)
+ finds it hard to trust someone
+ easily hurt

Cursed Ogre from the Mysterious Ominous Tower

♥tag in baby♥

♥mp3♥

+KENT-protection
+THE BRILLIANT GREEN-angel song
+PLACEBO-every you every me
+MUSE-sing for absolution
+MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE-you know what they do to guys like us in prison
+INCUBUS-a certain shade of green
+DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL-the places you have come to fear the most

♥music to my ears♥
placebo
kent
the brilliant green
incubus
dashboard confessional
the cure
radiohead
all saints
alicia keys
usher
fullmetal alchemist OST
cokelat
gerhana ska cinta

♥my eyecandy♥
bleach
naruto
one piece
gakuen alice
konjiki no gash bell
school rumble
samurai champloo
yakitate japan
tactics
shin chan
desperate housewives
one tree hill
SATC

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|incubus|
|cokelat|
|muse|
|neopets.com|
|punktorrent|
|naruto|
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im a dead zombie

Ithas been almost a month since i started working in Alor Setar hospital. To be exact, they've put me in medical department for a start .. and i'm the only fresh houseman there. yang lain tu sumer dah terrer2 ... aku jek yg terkebil2 kart sana. I'm currently in charge in female's ward. Most of my collegue told me how lucky i am to start in medical team, instead pf surgical or obs n gynae's ..bla bla bla .. i just hope so. There's lotsa things to be learn. I tell you what, i have no experience at all dealing with emergency situation. I had my tagging sessions with specialists for only 7 days when i was asked to start on my first on-call at the busiest acute ward ever. Darn! My first experience seeing patient collapsed in front of me was a nightmare! I really don't know what to do and that time i realized how stupid i am for being so 'gelabah'. All i could do is doing the first ABC emergency management and then called my M.o's for a help. The patient died in my hand .. i regret it for the rest of my life. My collegue told me to take it easy since ill be experiencing few more deaths among patients after this and i'll get used to it. As my on-calls' progresses and so do i .. i shall say that i'm used to it. My friends called me 'malaikat maut' cos whenever i'm around, there'll be sudden death among my patients ... hey! i'm not that kind of angel, mmkay ... i wish i could be guardian angel instead of watching other people dying .. i know shouldnt have symphatize or have guilty feelings whenever i can't save my patients cos it's against professionalism but doctors are just human beings rite?

Anyway, after experiencing another asystole patients with almost 30mins of CPR non-stop yesterday,iapplied for leave for 4 days straight .. i need a break .. penat giloss aa ... on-call every alternate days, working 24hrs non-stop ... hish ...

And so, saya pergi ber'gumba-yaya' in Thailand, doing what i love most ... SHOPPING!!!!! ;p

i just got back from Haadyai actually, waiting for my PDA's to finish downloading medical stuffs cos it'll be very useful for me as a houseman. Huhu!

And now i know why certain housemans' including me are still single ... cos the only strong reason is .... BUSY! Giler aa .. kengkadang tu, nak gi kencing pun tak sempat ... apatah lagi nak makan ...

And i now know why many housemans missed their studying time alot ... and i shall say ... i miss my college time too ... and i miss all my friends alot!!!

I'm outta here since i can't think of anything to share with u guys here except sleep .. hehe! so, take care! i'll be back ... dunno when la ... but i'll still be .. cheerio!

miss comot @ 7/13/2006 01:27:00 PM

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